Thursday, December 1, 2011


I've been tired.
And lazy.
I've felt slow, while my world around me races by.
I can't believe it's December.
Being nauseous for 8+ weeks doesn't help a girl get things done.
And now, well, I have some bad habits.
I spend a lot of my days talking myself into doing responsible things, instead of laying around.
I wasn't like that before, & it frustrates me.
I have laundry piles, dusty furniture, clutter in every room of my house, & dog prints on my kitchen floor.
That puts me in a grouchy mood. Then I don't want to do anything.
But. God is good.
I know He won't leave me here.
I know that my days are full of grace, gift.
I know that days of dirty dishes means we have plenty to eat.
I know that toys under my feet mean my children live in plenty.
I know that Christmas tree needles strewn throughout our house means we are making priceless memories.
I know that when I crawl out of bed in the morning that means I get to serve my family, my greatest gift.
And, I know that I will not always be an expectant mama.
That being patient with myself will help me appreciate that although I feel lazy & slow, I can feel a new life moving inside of me.
I know that this new life will increase the grace in my life.
Not everyone has the chance to walk this road I am on.
And I am grateful.

Tucker will be 2 on Monday.
Big plans for that sweet, handsome boy.

Our girl is officially 4 1/2.
She is a bubbly, lively girl, with generosity growing inside her.

Our house will be under heavy cleaning this upcoming week, in anticipation of a Bob & Larry party & Christmas fun.
My kids & husband are bundles of excitement.
And I'm... still tired:). But, thankful that at the end of the day, I have 2 kids tucked in warm beds, a gentle, patient best friend who cuddles with me on the couch, & a loving Father, who's grace I might never fully comprehend, but am slowly understanding more & more.
I really deserve nothing, yet He's given me more than I could ever ask.
Thankful for His great love...there's a way to get me excited!


Tiff said...

Thank you for the perspective dear friend. I needed the reminder as well, since i feel like I've been in the same place for some time now.

The Johnson's said...

Been missing you!:) And, yes this was a great reminder ... great post!

Sherrie Kulwicki said...

You know your Aunt Sha is a cleaning fiend! It would be my gift to you. All you have to do is call! I love you!